the night rainbow

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

This blog is going to be about things which are what the title suggests, D:

I feel so stressed. And yet I'm not doing anything about it, I don't know why.

I'm really worried for Physics, even though I'm not going to count it, but just looking at Ms Cheong makes me feel like I've got to do well for Physics, or she'll kill me. But the thing is that can't stand Physics. I really, really regret choosing Physics. I'm not even a Science-y person. My humanities have mostly been better than my sciences. (Andrea interjects: "I'm stupid but I'm giving you pressure")But I only took trip science because I want to be a psychologist, and trip science was a recommended option. Most of you reading this blog will probably laugh because I'm like, the last person to achieve my ambition.

Anyway, sometimes I wonder to myself, whether I'd be less pressured, less stressed, less worried, if I had just taken Geog instead, if I had just taken doubles instead. I mean, not like my geog was ever that good (It fluctuated between 2.0-4.0) but at least I had interest in it. The main reason I chose Physics was because there was a mutual hatred between the geog teacher and I, and Physics was too long ago for me to remember much about it, besides sleeping through the whole class and waking up just in time to greet the physics teacher goodbye (Really! It's literally true.) And yet, I did reasonably okay for physics in the end. Never did I imagine I'd be dying for Physics now. And dying so badly at that.

And on top of that, I feel like I'm slipping. Like how yesterday, for the first time ever since the start of the year, I didn't bring my calculator. On the day of Math AA. I felt damn stupid for that. Like damn stupid. ~~Like it was fated to happen or something~~

And sometimes, I get really pissed at some people, and yet when they turn around and nice to me at the next moment I can't help but be nice to them too. But sometimes I just snap at them and they become pissed and I feel so bad and pissed at the same time. Do you even realise what you're doing?

Okay I feel like sinking into those ambiguous emo sentences people love to write, so I shall stop.

And I have third lang later and I completely don't know what to do for french because I've been sleeping in class and giving the french teacher attitude. I'm sorry, but i really don't like her and she can't teach and I know she hates me. Which was kinda why I gave her attitude in the first place. You can continue concentrating on your darling vietnam scholar who thinks he's so chio and handsome and on your hardworking pretty people like TE (Who's actually really nice, no offense against her) and just forget about the rest of us.

On a completely random note,

HAHA CLE is funny! HuiJun's allegience should totally be to this class man. Actually, given the number of times HJ's booked us, it's enough to give us two dcs. But aw, HJ we still love you anyway ;D

One more heart at 9:34 PM